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One of my problems is that I am too lazy to hold a grudge. It takes focus and restraint to remember that I am upset with someone. I will often just forgive them at the first opportunity, to get it over with. I don’t enjoy being upset. I would rather not play the victim.

Unfortunately this means that certain people take advantage of my good nature. I need to put a stop to that. I realize that at times that I upset other people, that I sometimes fail on my commitments, which is part of the reason I try to be patient with others. No one is perfect.

I needed a ride home last night. I would be done what I was doing at 10:30. The person who agreed to do it said they might be a little late getting there, but agreed to pick me up by 11:00pm. I sent them directions including the phone number to the house where I was waiting to be picked up. By midnight my ride still wasn’t there. I tried calling them, and left a message on voicemail. My host offered to take me home, so that he wouldn’t have to wait up with me any later. (I took him up on the offer.)

My ride did not show, did not call, did not contact me today to apologise or explain. The only contact I had from them today was an e-mail informing me that “Today is National Mental Health Day”. They did not mention last night.

I don’t know what else I can say.