maverick_weirdo | Warning, pain and self pity ahead

Current Mood: depressed

Entry tags:

poetry

Warning, pain and self pity ahead

Read at your own risk.

Having a broken leg sucks;
You can't keep up with other people.
You can't go all the places you used to go.
You can't do all the things you used to do.

All you can do is wait to heal.
Trying to do much of anything wears you out,
You sit around frustrated, bored, and uncomfortable,
And you can't get the healing over with any quicker.
It takes as long as it takes.

Having a broken heart sucks,
For all the same reasons.

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

Wow. I'm not sure what I can say to encourage you. The comment you left for me was so positive, so uplifting that it's almost a shock to hear you THIS depressed.

I hope my depression didn't rub off on you or make you feel worse! When I was in school, I noticed that my depression did seem to rub off on people, so when I was in particularly foul moods, I tended to stay away from other people.

Maybe this will encourage you...life is like Chicago weather. Just wait another day; it is certain to be vastly different tomorrow. (Chicago has had 30 degree snowing AND 90 degree sunny temperatures in the same 24 hour period.)

Also, one person's opinion does not determine the value of YOU. You always have a family member, a friend and/or a nameless stranger on the internet who thinks well of you and wants you to be happy. :-)

Talking to you does not depress me, on the contrary, it helps me to put things in perspective. It is just that tomorrow would have been my 5th wedding anniversary.

My wife keeps telling me I need to "move on", and I am starting to believe her, but it's not that easy. Even if I let go right now, I feel like there is so much that I will miss out on while I am on "emotional crutches". Telling someone that they will be off crutches in 6 months to a year does not make the nights pass any quicker. Another part of me wishes that there was some way to speed up the healing process so I could just "move on" now, but I know that won't work.

You will be glad to know that I share your opinion on suicide. I'm not going to give up on me. I'll just be glad when tomorrow is over.

Healing is what happens to your heart while you're busy doing other things.

So, if I plan an outting to go see the Pawtucket Red Sox, would you go? -H...

Sure, assuming I don't have to work, and can catch a ride with someone. When did you have in mind?

I would also be interested if you were planning a Cirque du Soleil outting
(they will be in "Boston" from Sept. 08 through Oct. 08, 2006 at Suffolk Downs)

till kahunacon. You can play Atari flashback and Alternity with a broken leg or a broken heart!

(pathetic attempt at cheering up over...)

:) Attempt at cheering appreciated

Believe me I have been counting the days till kahunacon. (I don't actually have a broken leg currently. It was one of those metaphore thingies.)

Good to know. I almost believed it. Sorry about feeling down on your anniversary. Hope you enjoy KahunaCon! Wish I could go.

Thanks, and for those wondering, I survived

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

Warning, pain and self pity ahead

no subject

no subject

Platitude the Platitudipus says...

Re: Platitude the Platitudipus says...

Re: Platitude the Platitudipus says...

1 week

Re: 1 week

Re: 1 week

Re: 1 week